I Didn't Sign Up For This

When I agreed to get older, this is something I didn't sign on for. I had no idea getting older meant that hair in my ears would be growing faster than the hair on my chin. Then when I try to shave it, I end up cutting my ear. I wonder how much permanent removal costs.

Smoking

If I were diagnosed today with a terminal illness the first thing I'd do is buy a pack of cigarettes. I gave them up in 1989 and I still miss them today. In fact, the next time I see the doc I'm going to ask him at what age would cigarettes pose an insignificant risk on my remaining years. There has to be a time when the risk is negligible on what's left of my lifespan.

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Compulsive Eating

I'm eating compulsively lately. It's like smoking used to be, I'm powerless to control it. But maybe hope is in sight, I have a schedule starting next week that will get me back to the gym every week day. I'll see if I can make it to MY seventies.
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Justice to Stop Pursuit of Medical Marijuana Use - NYTimes.com

Justice to Stop Pursuit of Medical Marijuana Use - NYTimes.com.

I had to read the headline a few times before it sunk in - the Obama administration is not prosecuting federal medical marijuana offenses where it doesn't break applicable state laws. I think that's great. I wish it would have gone further, but you take what you can get.

Now, to get mental and mood disorders approved for medical marijuana use. But that's the subject of another post.

Sleep

I hate to sleep. There's probably several reasons for it, including:

• I don't want to waste the time.


• There are other things I'd rather do.


• It's stressful when I don't fall asleep.


• I often require medication to sleep, and sometimes that medication makes me do some very strange things.


• I don't want to tackle the new day.

I can get by on very little sleep, I can go for weeks with 3 to 4 hours a night. But I need SOME sleep each night, even if it's only an hour or two. If I go too long with minimal sleep things start happening. For example, I start to see things, shadows at first, then they get more concrete as time goes on. It also impacts certain parts of my brain, for example, my creativity really suffers.

Last night I got over 8 hours, and it made a huge difference in the day. Motivation was good, frame of mind was good.

But the day's keep coming, I can't duck them forever.

See you tomorrow.